Stranger than Fiction

Posted: June 23, 2010 in Uncategorized

Stranger than Fiction

All characters appearing in this story are real. And by real I mean fake. Any resemblance to persons living or dead or about to die or about to be born is purely deliberate.

A kid with a few hours to live was smiling outside my car. At a traffic light on the Ring Road, a guy with this kid around his arms is knocking on the side window, with more tears than eyes in his eyes.

Knock knock.

Who’s there?

Oman.

Oman who?

Oman I need some help.

He tells me that the kid needs a couple of medicines urgently. He even shows me a doctor’s prescription, with a sorrow so deep in his eyes. Sure I believe him. Sure I realise the medical emergency. I think I’ve heard this story before. Well, at least the plot was the same. A pregnant woman with her mother-in-law wanted money to take her to the hospital. They didn’t want my generous yet sarcastic offer to drop them to the hospital, which was a few minutes away. Just a travel allowance the old lady said. I saw the awesome twosome a week later at another other traffic light. Still pregnant. Still in her labour. And long overdue with it.

Knock knock.

Who’s there?

A little kid.

A little kid who?

A little kid who can’t reach the bell.

I tell this guy that his kid looks really sick. Patients with frontotemporal dementia have this tendency of failing to detect sarcasm. Only if he knew that I knew that he knew that I already know his story. So this time around I give him a generous yet sarcastic offer to get some clozapine prescription for his son, who for some reason is dying of schizophrenia. He refuses. The red signal goes green and he moves on the other side to tell his compelling story to someone else.

Probably an old lady who is keen on going to heaven and desperately needs some good deeds to nullify the bad ones. She’ll surely help him.

Last winter, while waiting for my office bus on the Ring Road, a guy comes up to me. He looks shabby but speaks well. His lips are dry and his hands are trembling; a classic symptom of addiction from…..god knows which drug. These addicts are always spoilt with choices, aren’t they? Standing there, he tells me that he has been walking all the way from Ashram.  I believe that (no, I really do). He tells me he has lost his wallet and needs money to reach his office.

Knock knock.

Who’s there?

DJ.

DJ who?

DJ vu.

I remind him it’s not the first time he has tried to sell his soft story for my hard cash. I try to jog his memory down to a fortnight back when he was standing at the same spot and telling me the same sobby story.

He racewalks before I even can say ‘Get set go’. All the way to his office is my guess.

Knock knock.

Who’s there?

Iam.

Iam who?

Sorry, I don’t know who you are.

The wide roads of Delhi are full of these small stories and the storytellers. Each story more compelling than the other. Each storyteller more convincing than the other.

The fakers, the drama queens, the ‘I would like to thank the academy’ father of a dying son. They all get up every morning like you and me and go to their front desk jobs on their respective roads. They are not beggars, they are not thugs. They are just salesmen. They sell stories for you to take back home. They make a hero out of you. They are just trying to make your mundane, monotonous life a little more exciting. A real father with a real son with an almost real story. A real woman with a real bun in the oven. And now you are a part of her story. A character. A vital link towards a ‘happily ever after’ ending. Then there is the middle age woman on Safdargunj road, she starts shouting the moment she gets off Bus No.543. She claims her polythene has been cut open with a knife. She is now out of cash, on the road and she needs a little help of a good gullible Samaritan like you, so that she can go home. So that you can feel a little better about yourself when you go home.

Knock knock.

Who’s there?

Aunt.

Aunt who?

Aunt you gonna help a helpless old woman.

Now I have a new office. A new road with new actors and new stories. I am on the toll booth, on a Monday morning. I usually take out my wallet three cars before my turn. Inside it are amber green 1000s, olive and yellow 500s, blue 100s, the red and orange 20s – all black. I pull out a 20 but for some reason I push it back in.

Knock knock.

Who’s there?

Old man.

Old man who?

Old man in the mirror is closer than he appears.

As my turn comes, I get out of the car. I walk back towards the mint green Santro behind me. I knock on the side window of the driver’s seat. The old man inside lowers his power window.

“Hello Sir”

“I am on my way to work and… it seems I forgot my wallet at home,” I tell him.

“Would you be kind enough to lend me a 20?”

“Sure son,” he says with a smile. He gives me a 20 and I give him a self congratulatory story to tell his grandson.

I take his twenty and hand it over to the guy at the toll booth, before I get back in my car. The rear view mirror confirms the smile on the old man’s face.

As I start my car, I throw the turquoise blue prozac capsules out of the car window. It’s been almost a month and I have been skipping on my prescription. The thrill and excitement is back in life. And giving me a high again.

Only if the others knew that I was one of them.


Ignorance was bliss

Posted: February 22, 2010 in Uncategorized

A team of experienced doctors who had looked at the undying cancer of my uncle said he was dying. The one who was younger said, “Two..two and a half..maybe.”

The intern was the one who choose to stay quite.
The one who looked more experienced was more pessimistic.

The one who was digging his nose was my uncle.

“1 year max,” the senior doctor said arrogantly as though he had a point to prove to the other one.
The intern looked at the reports more carefully this time or at least he pretended to. But he knew whose side to take for the rest of his time here. My uncle just smiled. He had just found a big chunk of dried mucus from the deepest interiors of his big nose. His trophy held high on his index finger.

They were discussing the fading blues and the vivid reds of his CT scan like it was a van Gough and they were connoisseurs.
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When you are dying of cancer, it’s not just the cancer which kills you. What kills you is cancer’s reputation (it really does half the job for you). It’s like the Premier League final of your body versus foreign pathogens. The stakes are too high and the enemy formidable. What kills you is the fear. The stress. The ‘I give up’ look on your doctor’s face. The fake smile on your sister’s face. The sleepless nights. The 4am nightmare. The 24*7 misery. Nothing works, not even the constant yet hollow self re-re-re-assurance that everything will be alright. Not even your sudden, newly discovered, undivided faith in the almighty god.

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It had been 3 years 5 months and 18 days. The pessimist doctor was surprised. The younger doctor now had a point to prove. And the intern was looking at the report once again or at least he was pretending to. Though now a little confused on whose side to be on. And my uncle was still alive and digging his nose. Well, he was dying. But then, aren’t we all in our own sweet way.

What the doctors couldn’t see in the CT scan of my uncle that day was that …well..he was not a very learned man. He never went to school. Never opened a book, except for once when he really had to blow his nose and couldn’t find his handkerchief (much to the delight of his grandson who had one less page to study). He never read the paper. Certainly not the article on latest research on cancer by Harvard Medical School. He had never met cancer. Was never formally introduced as such to the monster. So he never understood what had just hit him. He didn’t know that cancer was the mother of all diseases. That his immune system was getting royally fucked. It was just the cancer which was killing him, not its notoriety. So he really didn’t need the help of a Cancer support group as the nurse suggested.

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All this only added to the annoyance and restlessness of his three sons and his daughter-in-laws, who wanted him to put his blue inked thumb on his Will just once. Because no matter how hard they tried to explain to him that his fever is no longer a disease, it had become a symptom of something bigger, which would kill him sooner or later, no matter how hard they tried to explain the gravity of the situation, he just escaped it.

For him there was no tangibility in his disease. No blood which needed a bandage. No cut which needed some stitches. No burn which needed just a glass of milk with a hint of turmeric powder. For him there was no depression to overcome. No sweaty nightmare to wake up to.  For a long time there was no pain for him to bear.

For him ignorance was bliss to be lived until the day he died.

Hello world!

Posted: February 20, 2010 in Uncategorized

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